Mookie Love (chocomookielove) wrote in without_meds,
Mookie Love

About Myself

I have OCD. I used to be on pills, but I stopped taking them because they generally made me feel like a zombie. My condition does manifest itself from time to time, but I now know how to control it by myself, for the most part, and stop myself before it gets too bad.

My main symptom(s) is pulling off layers of my own skin, anywhere that it's flaking, or blistered, or if there's a painful or unsightly pimple. That on it's own wouldn't be too bad, but once I start, I can't stop, because my brain registers the left-over loose skin of the edges as another blemish to remove, and so on. Needless to say, it's not exactly a very good feeling (or look, for that matter, since it's happened to my face on multiple occasions) later on.
However, I now regularly use lotion and acme cream to stop my triggers from showing up in the first place.
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Hello, we recognize you from a few other communities. I pick at my skin too, though I'm not nearly as bad about it as I used to be. I used to have dime-sized sores on my head from doing it so much, I still have scars on my arms from it too. I can't always control it because it requires an immense amount of willpower to do so, but I did manage to greatly reduce it over the years. You might have already seen it, but there's a community for it: csp_support. Reading about others' experiences was very helpful to me over the years, then again it can be triggering too, but it's there if you need it. Good to hear you're taking steps to help yourself with this.

Just curious, do you pull your hair out too? I've known a lot of people over the years that do both, myself included.
Luckily, I don't pull out my hair. And I recognize you too, though barely. It does require a lot of willpower, indeed, that's why I try to prevent the problem's triggers, rather than the problem itself.

And thanks for the community tip; I didn't know about that!
ah! i do that too... enjoy it though.... like those little strings of skin on the base of your nails? yep... end up causing me a lot of pain...
Ah, man, I completely forgot about those, those are a big trigger too, and really painful.